spinning but not on the bicycle riding miles but not down the road eyeing the opening but not from within the pack struggling to finish but not the race
I have been struggling with some difficult things, too. No matter how competent I feel about my work or my personal strengths or my skills, when faced with decisions to be made about the things that matter most, I sometimes feel I am the person who should least be allowed to make them. "If I act, what will happen? If I do nothing, what will happen? And what should I do so I can take the next steps knowing I did the right thing?" I value the hours I spend alone in the streets in the dark. I take care of a lot of business in my head out there. Sometimes I even land on "right" or "good".
Oh man oh man you nailed it. A meeting at school today with our brand new principal and our brand new, very young wet-behind-the-ears vice principal, an elderly dog whose hips are giving out, a ginormous elephant in the family living room...I'm spinning and struggling too. When you find the opening, let me know!
A wise friend once said to look at tough decisions, those in which an obvious one doesn't rise to the top, not as Plan A and B (as in one decision is better, the other worse) but rather as Plan Right and Left. They're both good, they just head off in different directions. There will be other decisions down the chosen road. It helps me to realize there really isn't a WRONG decision to be made here.
And Doozy, I hear you: new principal, beloved pet...except my family house decisions regard my actual house. Whew.
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I have been struggling with some difficult things, too. No matter how competent I feel about my work or my personal strengths or my skills, when faced with decisions to be made about the things that matter most, I sometimes feel I am the person who should least be allowed to make them. "If I act, what will happen? If I do nothing, what will happen? And what should I do so I can take the next steps knowing I did the right thing?" I value the hours I spend alone in the streets in the dark. I take care of a lot of business in my head out there. Sometimes I even land on "right" or "good".
I feel every word of this post, this poetic rendering of the human condition. The writing is beautiful OB.
Nice!
The hard spots help us appreciate the soft ones all that much more.
Oh man oh man you nailed it. A meeting at school today with our brand new principal and our brand new, very young wet-behind-the-ears vice principal, an elderly dog whose hips are giving out, a ginormous elephant in the family living room...I'm spinning and struggling too. When you find the opening, let me know!
Amen!
It just all seems to drop at once.
A wise friend once said to look at tough decisions, those in which an obvious one doesn't rise to the top, not as Plan A and B (as in one decision is better, the other worse) but rather as Plan Right and Left. They're both good, they just head off in different directions. There will be other decisions down the chosen road. It helps me to realize there really isn't a WRONG decision to be made here.
And Doozy, I hear you: new principal, beloved pet...except my family house decisions regard my actual house. Whew.
I am not good with decisions, but your comment about plan A and B says a lot.
Well said and I feel that all too often.
Mabye the answer's in your own words... maybe you SHOULD:
Spin on the bicycle
Ride miles down the road
Eye the opening
And race the good race
This wouldn't be related to the Proposal, would it?
Ha! What a funny moment it was!
CP, I've been off the bicycle for too many days...tryin' to get things done before the crunch comes. That may be what's clouding my thinking.
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